hello everyone...

well i noe it had been donkey, elephant, monkeys and watever u name it, years since i last posted something.
so as promise i'm here to do my job...

ok, many things had happened and i've been through lotsa and lotsa emotions.
well i guess i wont wanna jot it down here since i dun wanna go through all those again.
had been doin lotsa reflections...
had been thinkin lotsa junks...
and i guess some do really help but most of the time they juz got me realli down...

but these r all part and parcel of growin up isn't it...
i wont denied tt i do feel unfair for myself..
why do all the best things go to others and not for me...
why do i haf to go through all these fucked up moments...
why do others get to enjoy what i don't...
but the more the think the more upset i'll get...
anywae life has never been fair isn't it...

but nevertheless i cant help but feel blessed when i noe tt my mum is always around for me...
throughout my 18 years of life i never did know tt i can be so dependent on her.. no doubt she is my pillar of support, i cant imagine my life without her especially durin this sucky period...
Thanks mum.. i won't wanna let u down

no forgettin all my friends out there...
u guys had realli been a great help...
special thanks to...

Firstly, Kenneth and Yuan Wen..
Thanks for helpin me out and guiding me through everythin...
Thanks for every words and actions of comfort...
Thanks for everythin u guys had done...
Without u guys i realli dunno what to do....
realli true friends u guys r...

Secondly, Shi qin and Li fang..
Thanks for spendin your time at my hse and helpin me out...
Thanks for those encouragment and word of advice...
Thanks for accompanyin me tt night...
Thanks a million!..

Thirdly, Huiyu..
Thanks for all those information tt u helped me to find...
Thanks for all those advices u had given me...
Also thanks so much for lendin a listenin ear to me...
Great friend u truly r...

Fourthly, eunice...
Thanks so much for gatherin so much courage to clear up our misunderstandin...
it realli cause a great impact on me...
worthy friend like u r hard to come by...
and i'm realli glad tt we managed to retrieve our friendship...
Thanks so much buddy...

Lastly, to anyone tt i may had missed out...
thanks so much...
for every encouragements, advices and messages...
i realli cant help but feel blessed with u guys around...
THANKS!!

getting out of a tough period is never easy...
i had wasted lotsa time and i wont wanna lose anymore precious moments..
i realli wanna be my best and do my best in the later part of my life...
i realli wanna be the old me who will bring laughters to everyone around me...
now is realli my time to learn from my failure...
i wanna get out from it ... be stronger and tougher...
and i'm confident that i can do it...

hmmmm...
well i think i'll stop here
next up i'll post things tt happened recently...
so stay tune..
haha...
ciao~