as the dateline draws nearer...

it make me fuckin scared...
it make me fuckin confused...
it make me fuckin annoyed...
it make me fuckin nervous...
and the list goes on...

damn...i think i realli needa reconsidered everything...
this is so fuckin irritatin....

i seriously needa consult somebody...
but i dunno who...
damn...

and tuition make me mad....
simple things why cant u understand...
if u cant understand at least make an effort to...
damn it....

i can't tolerate u forever...
homework undone, forever cant seem to concentrate, u r makin me lose patient...
stop actin cute for heaven sake...
i hate it...
fuckin hell...

u make me lose confidence in teachin...
u fuckin hell make me needa reconsider everythin...
and u can act like nth happened...
FUCK OFF!!..

U r seriously wastin my time and ur parents money...
i can do all my best to help ppl who wanna help themsleves...
not fuckin idiot who think tt the whole world owes u an livin...
wake up idiot...

sorry i got to blog bout smt like this...
i noe i shouldn't...
but wat else can i do...

and all the choices i gotta make r seriously drivin me crazy...
i needa tok to someone seriously...
or maybe i should juz numb myself and save everyone the trouble...

i'm tired...
so tired...

hmmm i came across this article and would like to share wif u guys



hmmm... maybe to some of u this seem like a joke but to me i sure learn somethin useful...
'Whatever we’re facing might not be the worst.
Whatever we’re given can never be too little.
Be contented and count on ya blessing…
Cause beware, things can always get worst'

hmmm...now i'm act learnin to face some tough hurdle in life...
but after readin this...it made me feel so much better...
things r not tt worst act...
i muz be contented wif wat i haf in life...
i had my family supportin me, my friends carin for me...
wat more can i ask for...

just a special thanks to Shi Qin and Wan Rong...
thanks for those encouragin words...
i'm so happy and relieve to know tt i'm not alone...
i realli dunno wat to say...
no words can express my gratitude...
juz to let u guys noe tt i'm truely thankful for those words...
and of coz feel free to contact me if anything is botherin u...
i'll be more den willing to help...

to all the others who r feelin down and depress..
rmb 'when the goin get tough, the tough get goin'
this phrase realli do help me alot alot...
and i hope this help u guys too..
GAMBATE!!

hmmm...
guess i'm realli ready for more challenges ahead...

yeap...
for now....the event tt cheer me up...
there is a gatherin on the 19th of march wif mrs shirley goh...
my fav teacher...
wahaha..
i'm just soooooo soooooo soooo excited...
hope she will haf an enjoyable nite wif us...
haha...
i'm so HAPPY

right...tt's all...
needa settle the uni admission thingy
which is a big headache...
may GOD bless me...

ciao~

hmmm...

it's so hurtful after endless days of strugglin and fightin ur mind of somethin so dreadful

and still reality prove it all...

everyone told u tt it was ok...
it's not as bad as u think....
everyone thinks tt there is still hope if u wanna fight on...

nobody understand except yourself...
one stupid sheet of paper is enough to determine ur future...
and to rub off bits and pieces of hard work u put in..

consolation and encouragment r wat u get after tt dreadful moment while u heard other ppl being congratulated...
for once u did imagined being appalused and congratulated but u woke up being reminded tt it was oni ur wishing thinkin...

u dosen't wanna seem too upset in front of ur friends...
u put on a brave front...
u crap and joke around as usual..
till u cant take it anymore and breakdown....

finally u recovered and find yourself facin oni the startin of everythin...
u cant bear to think of anymore dreadful stuffs...
u cant think straight...
scary thoughts occupied ur mind unknowingly...
u cant find anyone to share...
coz everyone will be busy celebratin and partyin...
busyin determinin their future path...

u dun wan others to see the weaknesses in u...
u being the stubborn u dun even wanna face the reality...
u cant find anyone tt shares ur thoughts...

it hurts...it seriously hurt...
all u can do is wait...
all u can do is being a coward...
all u can do is being emo and affect everyone around u...

u hate being upset but u cant help it but be upset...
u try to be strong but it wont even last for a second...
u hate yourself for being like this..
and u make the ppl around u hate u...

u silently wished for time to go back..
and wept bitterly when u noe tt it wont happen forever...

人生偶尔会走上一条陌生的旅途 像是没有指标的地图
他开始明白等待未必会有结过
他也曾经有梦想和希望
可如今却只剩下噩梦一场

谁能告诉这一个可悲的人，
他还能实现愿望吗？