FUCK tt G**** man, damn pissed off by her today. today we we're havin this particular lesson and there she was askin question hopin to get volunteers to ans. begin mu usual self, i would not ans if i'm not very sure whether my ans is correct or not, so i remained silent. and darn her la, of so many ppl she dun choose, damn, she picked on me to ans. den out of no choice i gotta give her my ans b4 she accused me of wastin the class time for takin too long to ans. so i ans her and she gave me tt dunno wat stupid, dummy, freakish watever u could think of look, FUCK her la, den she ask me:" wat did u sae again?" den i repeated myself one more time and she give me an super ultra astonished look, and den i heard some of my classmates gigglin, so i thought i haf given a wrong ans and was so malu la.

damn, den she sae:"so u noe the ans and u dun even bother to volunteer, okie gd, den i shall call u everytime to ans my question." WTF man, wat exactly did i do wrong, may i noe which stupid rule of yours state tt someone hu noe the ans haf to volunteer themselves to ans the question, damn la, wat a stupid old lady. GET LOST LA, IDIOT.

TMD, this is still not the worse. den she ask many more others questions, as usual nobody wanna ans, and obviously i damn not interested in the lesson anymore, damn so pissed off, and so she began callin out ppl to ans. b4 the students could ans her question, she add on:" dun blame me for pickin u all one by one to ans, it;s all yun xuan fault for not volunteerin in the first place." NB, WTF la, it's all my fault, wat the HELL she tryin to mean here, damn, tryin to be nice is it, tryin to be the gd man here is it, okie den let me be the bad man, be it, all my fault. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!

my fault to haf actually choosen THIS subject to study, my fault to haf been in 0610, my fault to haf actually choosen NYJC in the first place. NB, if u dun like me, simply juz request to expelled me from sch la, FUCK YOU!!!!!!!! wat the HELL she think she was, trin to sound as if she is the queen, damn i don believe tt wothout her i wld fail tt sub la. if u dun processed anything to be a teacher simply juz GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE, stop stayin here and spoilt all my mood to study. lastly juz one more sentence for tt YOU out there, u simply juz SUCKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!

damn, i MISSED 4E1 a lot, realli alot. haha, was goin through the class blog juz now, goin through the past events, and damn, lotsa memories juz flashes across my mind, the time we've been together, jokin around, havin fun,havin hist,goeg,physic,chem,math,chi class 2gether. i missed our teacher, miss the campus and even i couldn't believe it, i missed begin a HOUGEAN.

i juz couldn't 4get my sec sch life, esp the teacher, rmb mdm chin famous phrase"oh! do u mean u don't noe" and tt damn funny action when she sae this phrase, haha, rmb mr gan jokes, mdm hoo chi class, mrs lee 4eve super memory(she's juz like a walkin hist TB), mrs goh ss arguin session, mr tan super tricky test papers, mr roslan,the tallest man(1.98m), miss chia super cute eng teacher super patient.

can't 4get my super united, funny, motivated,nice 4E1, our super efficient zhang lao(miss chow), haha. cant forget us havin classes 2gether, havin our recess gatherin around the middle long table, chattin happily, workin hard together for every exam, our after sch MAC session, our post exam mahjong session in SQ hse, our super fun palawan beach outings andthe list go on, i could realli go on and on, there simply too much unforgetable fun time we had together. haha can't believe i'm actually tearin now, damn, i realli can't ,simply can't juz can't 4eva can't 4get em.

haha, recieved my time table for mid year le, was goin through it juz now, everythin remained the same, the format of the time table, the stress i feel b4 exam started and the busy schedule to prepare for the exam, BUT one thing tt will be diff and will be 4eva diff is tt, now the grp of ppl around me, workin hard together 'pia' for the exam is diff, it's no more my 4E1 hu will be there wif me, motivatin me to carry on, to work hard for the exam. replacin em is my current JC class, haiz damn sad la, but luckily i still haf a bunch of super united clique to 'pia' 2gether wif me, realli damn lucky for me, if not i realli dunno how to survive for this exam.

now, haiz, i noe tt i couldn't no longer get back to the past memory of 4E1, think i juz could oni get on wif live, tryin my v best to get use to the life without 4E1, but the memory of us wldn't be 4gotten, i'm damn sure bout this, so hereby wishin everybody in 4E1 all the best, love ya!!!!

haha, todae went out wif TMG again(btw, TMG is my clique in sch haha), damn fun la, i was as usual late, zong lin was the earliest, he was damn pissed off waitin for us for so long, more den half an hour i think, haha. sorri hor uncle zong. realli damn paiseh, i was the lastest to reach, den after tt we went to play pool AGAIN, haha, i think pool can become our clique most enjoyable 'siao1 qian3 huo2 dong4' le, haha, every outin we're sure to go play pool. damn todae keep losin, first to zong lin den to eunice, wow cao, keep begin trash, so malu, haha, aye, sld raelli practise more, hopefully one day can beat em.

ya forgot to mention shi ying, she was the lastest not ME, haha, she was almost 2 hrs late, wahaha, k la, she woke up late, so meet us late, and den not long after we ended our game and decided to go for dinner. but den, our three pretty ladies decided to go shoppin round, so we went SHOPPIN, and trust me, they took damn long, i was damn hungry ar, haha, but can't blame em la, they simply love shoppin i think,haha, so i think eunice bought smt for herself, den eunice suggest to go take noeprints, so off we go, waited for damn long b4 we got our chance. haha den got one background is green in colour,zong lin oso wore green, so his shirt turn out havin patches of white in between,haha, damn funny, den he keep complainin tt his shirt look so gay, damn funny. so after takin noeprints, we're doin the decorations for the photos, and we leave this job to eunice and esther, den there was this countin down part so tt we wun take to long to decorate our photo,den the countin down was damn fast, both of em thought tt the countin will stop halfway coz some other machine in other places do, but damn this machine continue countin down without stopin and so in the end we din manage to finish our deco, so some photo turn out quite funny, and esther and eunice keepim cursin and swearin at the machine, muahaaa damn funny.

after the noeprint, i was alreadi damn hungry and so i keep hurryin em to go haf dinner, so we went to MB to haf our dinner, dinner was fantastic esp went i'm sooooo hungry, we joke around play a fool, haha, den we saw this guy hu look so much like Mr William Yeo(one of the teacher in NY), when i saw him, i was damn shocked coz our gang were like chattin away so loudly like no one else is around(dun sae we r rude or wat, this is juz our gang style,haha call us cocky or wat,i dun care, i juz love TMG), but haha, it was juz another look alike person,so after the dinner, we went to the BLUE STAR.

yeah!!!!! blue star, and i followed the rule(for my sec sch clique u will noe wat rule i'm tokin bout), i brought em one by one to the bluestar, and believe it or not, when they frist saw it, they're like OMG it's damn nice, even zonglin sae tt, haha, told u all so, bluestar damn nice, a romantic quite place. i love it so much, den haha, as usual we play true or dare there, tell ghost stories, tell jokes, DRINKIN again, not forgetin to suan the LG(this oni the TMG noe wat it is) so fun, realli had a great time there, i simply juz love the time we're together, life can nv be so fun without em, TMG juz ROX!!!!!!

so after tt we went home, on our way back still continue to jokes haha, den ZL, eunice,SY went to take bus home, left oni me and esther, we went to take the MRT, haha, on our way there i keep trickin her wif my lame jokes, and she kept gettin tricked, haha, chatted oso in the MRT ride, was thinkin bout a nick for her*ahem*,haha, but still couldn't think of one, haiz.esther jia you, hope u think of one soon!!!!!

rite rite, gotta stop here, damn tired le, one more thing b4 i go, I LOVE TMG, TMR ROX MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! EUNICE, ESTHER,ZONGLIN,SHIYING,ELAINE, i love u all,muahaha,damn rou ma

nites all.......

this mornin was bad for me, i started my day quite well, thinkin of today NY volleyball match, feelin so enthu and excited, first time i'm feelin so enthu towards smt. However, todat durin my break, it was supposed to be a nice and relaxin break but den a call simply spoilt my morni break. i had an heated agument wif one of my frenz(outside ny), i dunno wat coz tt, but it juz wasn't wat i expected. damn, and tt call realli shattered me, dun bother to ask me hu the caller is coz i'm NOT goin to tell, dun even wish to recall this incident ever again.

i'm simply juz so damn pisssed off this mornin, nobody could haf coz such an impact on me, realli nobody except tt whoever, damn, it made me lost interest in everythin i do today includin the volleyball match, i even thought of not goin, but luckily i did not, if not i'm realli goin to cursed myself for missin such an excitin match. after my break, PE is next, but todae no PE coz the guys haven completed thier napfa so we haf an early break, went for lunch wif eunice and esther, after tt went to the gym to find zong lin. still feelin v pissed off, so i started doin some work out, and i mean work out, i haf nv use exercise to vent my angry but todae i juz simply couldn't stand it anymore, i keep on and on, doin the work out, juz to tired out myself so tt i dun haf any extra energy to think to recall.

damn, this method did work for me, after workin out, i felt so relieve so comfortable. i haf nv love the gym so much but todae the gym saved my life. but now, i'm dyin, coughin like hell and my hand was like breakin, damn uncomfortable now.

alright enuff of complainin, back to todae volleyball match, it was damn excitin, so gan chiong, ny was like smt leadin den losin den leadin den losin, we spectators were cheerin like mad, the spirit was damn high. we haf expected the whole HCI to turn up to support their sch, but in the end, chey, oni bout 1/4 of em turn up, so of course NY cheerin was louder, haha, den halfway durin the match, the AJcian pop up, and it wasn't juz a few it was alot, far more than HC, it was as if NY was playin agaist AJ. i realli din make the wrong choice to come, one of the NY players( no'7'), she was damn li hai, she saved every ball beautifully and her smack for every ball was simply juz fantastic, love her man, overall, NY volleyball team ROX!!!!!!!!

okie, gotta stop here, a damn long borin entry, too tired to continue...
nites all......

haha, long time din update le, coz nth much to blog bout, sch is so damn sian, and also i miss the o610 clique outin again,so sad,so jealous la,heard tt they haf lots of fun in the outin,*sniff*. been feelin unwell for the past few days,so wasted la,my long holidays, den when i was slightly feelin beta which is todae,i gotta study for SPA(practical examination) for tmr, haiz my lond holiday is juz wasted like tt. anywae, i went out wif my family to celebrate Mothers' Day, we went to this thai restuarant called "magicwok" if i'm not wrong, the food there sucks totally, it juz tasted ike shit, dunno y still got lotsa ppl, and the food damn ex, this is the first and oni time i wld go there. should haf go thai expree instead, this comin Fathers' Day, i'm gonna suggest we go thai express.haha.

anywae, guess wat, i found ZHI YANG'S BLOG, i damn so happy la, i noe for some of u, u maybe haf found it long ago(call me shua gu or watever den) i'm juz so HAPPI tt i found his blog, for some maybe u dun like him, but i dun give a damn, coz i realli love him, he so damn CUTEEEEEE, and he sing realli well, i juz couldn't resist hearin him sing, haha

after readin his blog, i find tt begin a superstar is not easy, u need to noe how to present yeself in front of other, like for zhi yang, his blog is bout his life as a superstar, but ppl sae he hao lian(begin proud) bout himself as a superstar. they so bad la, den wat they expect him to blog bout, how he can't manage his time in sch, how he mug in sch is it. as a superstar he of course haf his own activities and he so kind enuff to update us wif it, and yet some ppl go and tag some neagtive comments. juz dun understand this ppl, if u dun like or hate tt somebody den dun read his/her blog la, y muz leave negative comments, this ppl r juz damn so bo liao(too free nth to do).

begin a superstar, u also haf to endure ppl intrudin to ye privacy, wa cao, superstar r oso human, they needa their own privacy too, y can't these ppl juz leave em alone, and oso raed from ZY blog, ppl haf been imposin him, usin his nick in msn to chat, this is like so frustatin la, imagine ppl imposin u chatin wof ye frenz. try imagine begin a jc student, life's alreadi so hectic and then as a superstar there so many activities they needa to attend are goin on, no time for tutorials and to study tests. i can't imagine how to manage a life like tt, it alreadi so presurrise and yet still af to deal wif all thse prob, it juz so damn diffi begin a superstar,

dun u all agree? haha, i noe this entry is kinda lame, but i realli gott sae it out coz i wanna help ZY da3 bao4 bu4 pi2. haha like him so much. damn cuteeeee

rite gotta stop here, tmr still got SPA, nites nites

Election finally over, for heaven sake it's over. nobody now wld disturb my slp early in the mornin, goin round in their cars(or sld i sae campagin vehicles) shoutin for ppl to vote for them, damn la, make me wake up so early to heard em shout. wat more i'm not entitle to vote la, even if they shout until thier throat burst i oso can't even vote for em lorx.

haha, now it finally over, my district come under the PAP, okie fine anywae i dun give a damn, wat so imporatnt to be under who, wat so important bout election. bcoz of election, even MPs go around suanin(sae sth bad) each others. so tis is the attitude we sld show each other la, den wat is the friendship day or racial harmony day all about. i thought as a Singaporean we alwae have been taught to live in harmony wif one another. so now, wat the eg our well repected govt had show the younger generation. so when election come, it's okie to fight among ourselves is it. anywae is winnin the election so important afterall, we're all singaporean wat. does it realli matter as in who control whch district, is it realli true tt beside PAP no one else can give us an comfortable life.

but i dun realli c any comfortable life in sinagapore except for those who r so damn rich la. there r still beggers on the street, there r still families hu r so poor tt they can't even afford their daily meal, so wat bout these ppl, had the govt realli show care and concern for em, had the govt realli help to solve their prob. so wat the promises they haf give b4 all the election, they promise to improve our lifes promise to do this and tt, but will they realli do it after the eletion.

haven u all realise tt it was alwae until the election time, den they govt wld show their"kindness" to us, or wat they call sharin the success of the country wif us, come on la, come to think of tt, when is the govt alwae so kind to give $$$ to the ppl, it alwae durin the time when election is comin, hiaz i wonder why r ppl alwae so innocent, juz by givin em a taste of $$$, n they r simply juz drawn towards em. by anwae thanks god tt now finally everythin is over.

gotta go, nite all...

ENDLESS ROAD~JJ LIN JUN JIE
ho~~~~~~~~
the truth is tearing up
my heart
i can‘t recognize this place
the endless road without a stop sign
can‘t even find a stranger this time
why am i still holding back my tears
in this loneliness there‘s nothing to fear
every chord still seems a wonder
how we could be together
every time i ask if this
would be the last
why am i still talking to myself
hoping you will have the keys to my sell
every song might calm the weather
but it just draws me deeper
how do i get out of this
i think i never will……
a crystal forming in the eye
maybe this would be the last
the winding path down my face
till i begin to taste the bitterness inside
i never will……

juz happen to come across this song juz now when i'm listenin to some music. a nice sad song, it make me think of our life, juz now a endless road, dun even noe where is the end, rite from young, we needa to study at the age of 7, until now still studyin, rite until after uni for most of us, but for those hu r plannin to get a master degree or watever it is, still muz "chiong", juz how long muz we study den is consider enough, i'm so sick and tired of studyin, for me i think it is pointless, i'm juz gettin nowhere in my studies, everyday go sch slack and rot.

this song realli descibe me, i dunno why i'm still holdin back my tears, y dun i juz let it down, but it seem to me tt i nv will, from now on, i told myself nv to cry, cryin dosen't solve anythin, it juz appear to other tt u r weak, so unless it's necessary, i won't break down in front of others anymore, suddenly, i juz rmb alot bout my past, how i feel when i first got back a bad result, when i haf a heated argument wif someone, y din i alwae let my tears flow down. i think i can nv get an ans, and i dun intend to.

todae i;m realli not in a gd mood, dunno y, emo maybe, dun wish to be like tt but i can't help it. sorri to my 0610 clique, realli sorri for showin u all attitude, i din blame anybody for not goin to eat the "duo hua", haha, it not any of ye all faults, it's mine, juz dunno y, v tired after the assembly, feelin more moody den ever, but juz wanna point out again tt, i'm realli not angry wif any one of ye all, u all r the best clique ever, sorri to haf show u all this kind of attitude, realli SORRY. hope it won't happen again, realli will cherish every moments we r together, haha, i noe i'm begin v emo, it gettin kinda disgustin alreadi, so i think i'll have to stop here.

nites all.......

yeah!!!! now break time, nth to do, juz finish helpin my frenz to print her PI. finally print le, but dunno whether the teacher will accept anot, damn, she shld juz accept wat, ppl do until so xin ku, oni forgot to print oni ma, my frenz were so stress this mornin, coz the lib not open, com lab cannot use den nowhere to print her PI, in the end we dun care still go for lect first.now, finally help her print le,hope the teacher will accept, if not, damn dunno how le.

lata,got PE, dun needa PE, so cool.haha, my poor fellow classmates still gotta do their napfa,pathetic ar. anywae gd luck to all doin napfa, gotta go le.

today back to sch from the long holidays. damn so sian rite after my first lesson i got a 3 hrs plus break, so sian now slackin in com lab, comin thus got a math tests but i dun feel like studyin. coz it on quadratic functions, the chap i hate the most beside function, plus i din attend the lect for this chap as i din take math durin first three months.haiz, goin home study after this.

today mornin got GP test, it sucks coz i realli got nth much to write, so juz crap around. die sure fail de. GP alwae sucks for me, i din pay attention durin tutorials or lectures, basically i juz hate language. lata got chi lesson, so sian,din do hw, damn realli feel like ponin lesson.and juz now durin CT period got back my chem test result, got a result i dun realli happi with bcoz of some reason(can't mention here). damn, chem like tt, math like tt, GP like tt, chi oso like ttm, think i'm goin mad sooner or later.

damn, my lastest blog entry muz haf made alots of 0601(PAE) ppl sad, i'm realli guitly, i hate makin ppl sad, but wat's wrong wif begin frank. maybe i shld be more careful on wat i shld blog next time. ya it realli affect me, stop tellin mi it not my fault, i noe it is, so think i'm goin to remove tt entry soon.haiz

gotta stop, can't realli continue wif my emo now, complex feelin(sadness filled wif guilt), hope to c the 0601(pae) around in sch.awaitin for the dreaded chi lesson.

Ytd was FUN, simply fun. i went out with my 0610 cliques, we went to parkway for pool. ya, although it's not the first time we went there but it was still fun,i've simply love begin with em. with em, fun are never endin, oni with em den i can realli be myself. this is the feelin i can't get from my 0601 frenz, the things we like r juz not the same, i LOVE havin fun, like palyin pool, goin out 4 a drink, begin high,jokin around,and wat most importantly be myself. these is smt which i can't realli do in front of 0601,with 0601 i feel restricted but still fun havin em, ppl like justina, cheryl and more. i hope u all(0601) won't feel sad after readin these. i've hasitated as in whether to write this blog but i still wrote coz i juz wanna let u all(0601) noe tt i love begin with u all too, the kind of fun is diff when i'm with my 0610 cliques but nevertheless u all are still my motivation to go to sch everyday, without u all my first three months in Ny wouldn't be so enrichin and fun. i still love my previous class.

ya back to ytd, actually we were supposed to go for synery(a concert in NY), but zong lin(our big bro in the clique) suggest to go out b4 tt and so we went to play pool( ya my favourite game). eunice haf oso ask along some of her soccer frenz includin justina and cheryl, so happi to see them. we haf fun in the pool, seein cheryl do all werid stuffs, damn funny. i oso hope to defeat zong lin but damn i still lost to him. nvm, i'm gonna brush up my skill and one final day i'm gonna defeat him.haha. ya, after our pool, our dear uncle zong lin suggest we go to the HAWKER centre to haf our dinner, it was so hot there la, but luckily the food there taste nice. thanks uncle zong lin,haha. after we haf our dinner it was already 7 plus and damn we're late for synery but still we went, by taxi.

finally reach bout 7.45 or 8.i can't rmb. managed to catch the second half of the concert, it was quite nice i like the street dance part, it was damn cool. after the synery, we went for a couple of drink, zong lin bought the drinks for us,we sat by a playground near by and talk, it was fun, begin with em, sittin by the playground tokin, knowin em even beta, sorri tt i've to leave early, but most of all, i realli haf fun, thanks lot the 0610 cliques, i'm sure we all r the most united cliques surely beta den the rest of the class, and ya, we would remained like tt for the 2 years, rite?

okie okie, enough of tt, tmr is labour day, YEAH!!!!! holiday, but damn i still haf a pile of hw awaitin for me, yup, i juz haf to accept the fact, no outin no fun for tmr, hw day for me instead, gotta stop here, nitez all><