hmmm...

it's so hurtful after endless days of strugglin and fightin ur mind of somethin so dreadful

and still reality prove it all...

everyone told u tt it was ok...
it's not as bad as u think....
everyone thinks tt there is still hope if u wanna fight on...

nobody understand except yourself...
one stupid sheet of paper is enough to determine ur future...
and to rub off bits and pieces of hard work u put in..

consolation and encouragment r wat u get after tt dreadful moment while u heard other ppl being congratulated...
for once u did imagined being appalused and congratulated but u woke up being reminded tt it was oni ur wishing thinkin...

u dosen't wanna seem too upset in front of ur friends...
u put on a brave front...
u crap and joke around as usual..
till u cant take it anymore and breakdown....

finally u recovered and find yourself facin oni the startin of everythin...
u cant bear to think of anymore dreadful stuffs...
u cant think straight...
scary thoughts occupied ur mind unknowingly...
u cant find anyone to share...
coz everyone will be busy celebratin and partyin...
busyin determinin their future path...

u dun wan others to see the weaknesses in u...
u being the stubborn u dun even wanna face the reality...
u cant find anyone tt shares ur thoughts...

it hurts...it seriously hurt...
all u can do is wait...
all u can do is being a coward...
all u can do is being emo and affect everyone around u...

u hate being upset but u cant help it but be upset...
u try to be strong but it wont even last for a second...
u hate yourself for being like this..
and u make the ppl around u hate u...

u silently wished for time to go back..
and wept bitterly when u noe tt it wont happen forever...

人生偶尔会走上一条陌生的旅途 像是没有指标的地图
他开始明白等待未必会有结过
他也曾经有梦想和希望
可如今却只剩下噩梦一场

谁能告诉这一个可悲的人，
他还能实现愿望吗？