hi ppl...
i'm back...well i'm half done wif the A's
...i shall not mention how badly i did(well at least this is how i feel)...
hmm..i'm left wif three papers...ya 3 more fuckin papers and i'm done wif the A's...
but next week is tt damn ECON papers....HOW???

alright...i shall not think bout it for the moment...
i've got one week to prepare...
right...hmmm...i took a break from studyin ytd after my chem paper...
thoughts came rushin into my mind...
i dread the idea of havin to work after exam...
wth...was talkin to shi qin ytd on MSN...
tokin bout things like how we used to enjoy our life after exam last time..
w/o the worries of havin to work...not enuff money...blah blah blah..
and we(or rather me)came to the conslusion tt we had grown up and r old alreadi..
haha...

well...i dunno...
i wished to grow up but as we r growin up..there r so much for us to "fan nao" as well...
why like tt... no wonder my cousin told me tt if i had reach her age...i wld dread growin up
well how true is tt!!!...
hmmm...maybe for some of u...u will disagree wif me...but nvm..who cares..

well...i guess i've been so busy these 2 years tt i do not have the time for some serious thinkings...
i'm one who like to think...
我喜欢天马行空地乱想象。想很多很多的人生大道理，人生里所发生的许多大大小小的事情。
我知道很多人会说我很无聊，嫌时间太多阿！
哈哈！不过没关系。。我并不在乎别人怎么看我，我喜欢活在自己的世界里。
我不喜欢把我的事情告诉全世界，因为我不喜欢别人用同情的眼光看我。。
是的，我是个自尊超强的人。
不过，我也是这么的在乎人与人之间的关系。
这次的考试让我了解到家人对我的关怀，面对妈妈每次无微不至的照顾，我的内心却是充满了内疚。
这几年来，我从没有好好的感谢妈妈，我知道她不会看到这段文字，不过我还是要忠心的感谢她。
我保证再也不让她伤心难过。
也许是经历过莫些事情，让我深刻地体会到原来朋友之间的友谊是那么的脆弱。
他们不会因为你曾经帮过他们而念着这份感情，他们也不会因为你们所拥有过那么美好的回忆而惦记着这份友情。
他们只会因为莫些连自己也搞不清楚的事而把你辛辛苦苦建立起来的友情粉碎得干干净净。
也是因为经历过这件事，令我清楚知道那一些才是真正的好朋友。
他们不需要做太多事，他们的存在让我欣慰。
当然我对我这些好朋友也充满了许多愧疚，这两年来我也很少时间陪他们。
我花太多时间和精力在无谓的事，从现在开始我不会再是一个看不清人和事的笨蛋。
我会用一切去弥补我的愧疚，用一切去珍惜真正爱我的家人和朋友。

我不是没有试着去挽回一切，其实我根本没有必要那么做。
只是我不甘心辛辛苦苦建立起的一切就这样毁了。
不过我所做的一切在他们的眼里都只是垃圾，我觉得自己像足了白痴。
既然这样我想我也就不用再做无意义的振扎了。
就让过去的回忆就此消失吧！

eh...i dunno why i suddenly feel like writing all this in chi..
frenz dun worry if u dunno wat i'm tokin about...
it's juz junk...
but from now on...i juz wanna be myself...tt happy self...
hope the A's end soon..

i'm damn excited about the HS camp...
though it's kinda of saddenin tt Mrs Shirley Goh, Mrs Jasmine Koh and Mrs Florence Lee are leaving us soon...
they r my favourite teachers..
wo zhen de you dian she bu de
but i hope they will be satisfied wif the camp we(erm ok..i'm not realli in the plannin team) had planned for em...hope they enjoy themselves during the camp
and hope they bring wif em the memories they had wif us (the 4E1)
4e1 clique...let haf fun after my A's
*excited*
ciao...