haha..yeah i'm back...
well i think i might as well give up bloggin completely...LOL
erm ok prelim is over and FREAKING A's is coming...
serioulsy i'm scare...like damn scare...
the prelim result proved it all...i'm done...
shit...i dun even wanna think of it or face it or do smt bout it...
i dunno wat to do as in i'm realli lost....
why r things happenin out of control.... it's retribution ba i think...

it's only through experiencing all these tt make me realised tt i missed the past...
be it frenz, sch, teachers...even result...
i can only find comfort when i'm wif my sec frenz... u guys r the one tt make my days...

i realli dunno wat is happenin to me now..i'm not emo-ing...
things changes like nobody business...i'm completely outta control of my life...
i swear smt had happened but why U GUYS just choose not to face it... WHY??
or it is JUST ME...am i the one tt CHANGED???
pls tell me if i'm realli the odd one out...
GOD pls pls grant me strength to carry on...PLEASE...
i'm totally freak out by the impacts all these had created...
pls tell me wat's WRONG...just WAT WENT WRONG...
everything is just so fine initially...but it's just change drastically suddenly...
i dunno why...

i dunno how to describe my feelin now...complicated i shld say...
it's just another 2 months time and everythin will soon be over
i'll soon to able to erase all these memories from my mind...
soon..SOON..VERY SOON...

U GUYS had been great frenz...i swear...
helpin me out alots and guidin me all along...
i appreciate everything YOU GUYS had done...i REALLI DO...
no matter wat... maybe i had been too much a burden for U GUYS to bear...
i'm still waitin ...waitin for the chance for us to be like B4...
even if i noe tt chances r slim...
U GUYS can pretend nth had happened but i can't...
if things realli cant be slove den just be it ba...
no matter wat THANKS for being there for these 2 years...it's great knowin U GUYS...

i'm tired...i had tried my very best to act like i'm fine like everyone else...
but how long can i do tt... it's both phyiscally and mentally drainin...
my body is tellin me to give up...
my mind is holdin me on...
JC life w/o support suck...the feelin of being left alone suck...
ppl come and go as they like...
the feelin of being taken for granted SUCK...it SUCK TO THE CORE...
A's will be all i'm gonna focus right now...
the REST of it...i shall let fate decide...

ciao everyone...ciao my JC life..
i'm gonna stop bloggin for a long time again...
hopefully everything will return to normal...GOD BLESS ME!!