well i admit everytime i wld visit this blog is when i realli haf nth to do....haha...and i noe i am not prefectly gd at expressing my thoughts and view..ppl out there if u cant understand wat i am tryin to convey den forget it.... dun read anymore....

i noe everybody out there will be hating the emotional me...will think tt i am basically juz a freakin asshole, a no-lifer or anythin u can think of....i dunno...but once in a while the emo side of me will juz come out to seek it life... is it my fault to be emotional...well i dunno...and i am not blamin anyone out there... but i sincerely thanks u guys for watever reasons...for begin around wif me, for begin my friends etc...as long as we r related by smt...be it the TMG, 4e1 clique....

ok... i am a no lifer...so wat...smt i realli wonder whether i am leadin a life tt is productive.... i juz got back my result.... i managed to be promoted...ya i noe i shld be happy coz all my friends manage to be promoted too(this is one of my biggest worried a fews days ago)... but i juz dunno why...why some ppl can manage their so well but not me.... i am not freakin pissed or wat but juz dissapointed... i'm not someone hu is easily satisfied... and i am tellin u guys out there...yes i am not at all satisfied wif my result.... my life is alreadi at a mess...and gettin back this kinda result doesnt make it any beta... i noe many will be sayin tt,"hey...consider yoursleves lucky..there r still others hu get retain.." ok well.... so wat.... this is life....

i do not exactly noe wat is life either or to be exact...MY LIFE...why am i livin this way....many things happen and many thing changes around me... ya i am not used to this changes ... i am one hu is v rigid... i hate changes i hate life..... but wat can i do.... ya i go round tellin ppl i dun wanna live through my life with regrets....haha...wat a joke...i am now regretin like hell.... wat is this all bout.... someone once told me this,"GOD's playin chess with us....he make moves in our LIFES...then sits back to observe how we deal with the CHALLENGERS...SO MAKE THE RIGHT MOVES!.."ya i totally believe in this... and once in my life i believe tt i WILL and CAN make the right moves...but wat now.... it juz seem tt i am movin further and further away from my true slef.....

ya i might seem cheerful all days long... i might joke around wif u guys.... yes i am hidin my true slef from u guys...yes i am a hypocrite(i dunno how to spell it)...yes but so wat....isnt life suppose to be like tt...... well basically all of us r wearin masks... we r not realli the true slef when we r with others...dun u guys agree...well if u dun...den nvm...maybe i am the oni one hu think this way...when we r alone den we wld take off the mask and think...WHY WHY muz we live our life like this...well maybe it bcoz we r alreadi use to it... we haf be propagated to live our life like this...

okok... i shall continue no more with my emotion state now... i dunno how nasty i can get if i continue....hate me for all u wan..i dun care... i dun live for others...i live for myslef.... i dun give a damn how others might feel... I AM MYSELF and i dun think why i shld change.... anywae juz for a little happy thing for myslef..and for all ur information...rmb tt BITCH i haf mention in my blog...wahaha... EVERYONE in my class is hatin her now...wahaha... i dunno why but from wat i can c....she is juz damn so unpopular...wat a pathetic BITCH...wahaha..watever i dun care... i am happy tt she is pathetic...ya i am EVIL....dun ever think u can make the hell out of my life...haha....

well it is a damn long entry...and i noe there wont be anyone hu will realli read it from the top to the bottom...but nvm..tt's all ...bye