next week will be a challenge for me, i got 3 tests comin up. whoa! it totally drain my energy man. on sat, which is ytd, i shld haf a outin wif my class cliques but damn, coz of tests tt are comin up and my freakish weak body which is gettin unwell alwaes, i missed the outin. we planned to go kbox la, KBOX u noe, which is my favoutite place and damn, i missed it, can u imagine, i stayed at home the whole day dreamin bout goin k. sorri to those i haf pang seh, realli sorri, once all the test r over, i'm sure i go wif ye all k. haha, so regret tt i din go and missed all of ye beautiful voice.hahaha

basically, there r chem test on mon, chi on tue and finally econ on fri. most of my frenz got oni two la, it either chem and econ if not chi and econ. wat the hell wrong wif my combi, to haf three tests all in the same week, did all the teachers discuss b4 hand to make the hell out of my life. damn i'm juz so so so busy these weekend la. and ya, tmr one of my frenz is leavin for Aust to continue her studies and bcoz of my freakish damn timetable which end at 5.15 tmr, i can't go to the airport to see her off. realli sorri pei wen, hope u understand. i wish u all the best in ye studies and hope u come back often to look for us k.

i juz dunno la, how many more things am i goin to miss still, it juz the startin of jc and believ it or not, we r all damn stress and busy. how busy can we get, it juz tt i miss the time i spent wif my frenz, family, love one and so on. bcoz of the stress, my hot temper was back, kept ventin it out on frenz and family. realli sorri to those who haf suffer under my bad temper, i din mean it but i realli dunno wat had happened to me. wat exactly had got over me, controllin my life and everythin, damn i realli dunno and dun wished to noe, one day when all my energy had drained away and tt it, i dunno wat will happen and the thought juz freak me out.

ya for now, i'm juz goin to concentrate on my studies, i dunno wanna be retain, i realli dun wan, shld i be the one controllin myself all shld i leave everythin to god, can any kind soul help me wif tt, i'm realli damn tired and helpless, i had lost the battle wif stress and lost myself to it.

todae is juz a bad day, not oni todae but the rest of my jc life.